What Was Real
©2004 Lydia Lord

I wanted to get giddy
I wanted to get thin
I wanted extra energy
I wanted to fit in
To feel like a grownup
To keep from feeling sad
Or simply to feel different
Than the way I always had

I wanted to stop hurting
I anted to belong
I wanted to try something
That my parents said was wrong
There weren’t as many choices
Just as well, I guess
With all the stuff that’s out there now
I’m sure I’d be a mess

So nowadays there’s lots more ways
To rearrange your mind
The ones that aren’t illegal
Are just easier to find
I guess we’ve all done something
To change the way we feel
I wonder why we couldn’t
Just stay with what was real
I wonder why we couldn’t
Just stay with what was real